100 Truths, i guess.

01. last beverage = Peppermint tea at 5.30 in the morning.

02. last phone call = Ryan. My blind friend that I did a documentary on last year.

03. last text message = Julian "Morning. Saw the clip, it can make a nice hallwayshot, however i didnt like how it cut with the
dolly shot. We can't have 2 establishing shots, maybe the dolly shot can be tighter more like following her body up."

04. last song you listened to = Meadowlarks—Fleet Foxes

05. last time you cried = yesterday. but now my troubles seem so far away.

HAVE YOU EVER:

06. dated someone twice = yes

07. been cheated on = well, noone told me so!?

08. lost someone special = Touch wood - no! And I am extremly grateful for that and please keep it that way!

09. been depressed = I dont believe in depression but i might just not see the connection. So maybe?

10. been drunk and threw up = ...there was this one time i puked in bed and told mum it was my friend who wasnt even at my place. That is disguishingly hilarious.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

11. silver

12. purple

13. white

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

14. Made a new friend = yeah :) a fair bit of then luckily.

15 Fallen out of love = constantly. And constantly back in.

16. Laughed until you cried = It´s unfortunately rare but it happened once not too long ago.

17. Met someone who changed you = Meetings change people and people change the world. So definatly - Ive been Inspired and Stunned by many different talents.

18. Found out who your true friends were = Slowly Im realizing, understanding the meaning and importance of them.

19. Found out someone was talking about you = No, but I am SURE they are and I would love to hear the goss.

20. Kissed anyone on your fb friend’s list = NOPE. And I dont want to be friends with HIM there.

GENERAL:

21. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life = There might be 10 I am not sure who they are, the rest I knew at some point in my life. The others get denied.

22. Do you have any pets = No, never had. My sister had 100´s though, so got the fun and skipped the responsibility =) Mum is getting a puppy now though and I am very sugen ( great swedish word =)

23. What did you do for your last birthday = Woke up in Australia at 5 am by my Mum& Thomas sitting in my bed as a surprise all the way from Sweden. I screamed and cried and laughed so the whole neoghbourhood woke up =)

24. What time did you wake up today = 5.30 AM (Very random day thoughas I made birthday cake for my beau before work)

25. What were you doing at midnight last night = Baking birthday-brekkie-scones.

26. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Hug & kiss & Squeeze my niece & nephews :(

27. Last time you saw your Mother = She was here for 3 weeks, I went to Sweden for three a day after she left so - 4 months ago. I miss her truly!

28. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = I wish I could have my family and friends close by always.

29. What are you listening to right now = the humming of my computer.

30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Yes I was babysitting 2 Toms - their mum were best friends and the babies had the same name haha. I called them TomMac and TomCat!

31. What’s getting on your nerves right now = Right now I am completley relaxes in my extremely stressed mind so nothing.

32. Most visited webpage = Facebook, Google, Gmail and some swedish blogs =)

33. Nicknames = Axel, HannaBanana, HannaMontana, Hanni, Boobie (Thats accualy what my man calls me -Don´t ask me how he got it)

34. Relationship Status = 2 years of living with my partner soon.

35. Zodiac Sign = Pieces (Or fishie as I like to say)

36. He or She? = What is that supposed to mean? Boys are generally funnier. Well, naaw, both!

37. Elementary? = Höjaskolan =)

38. Middle School = Höja...

39. High school/College = Pauli - and I HATE that i was convinced to choose it! Grrr

40. Hair color = Cendre they say, I say brown.

41. Long or short = Longest ever which is shoulders for me. Im trying soo hard!

42. Height = 5’10”, 177cm

43. What do you like about yourself?=

44. Do you have a crush on someone? = I get a crush on my man everytime he comes to see and looks drop-dead-georgeous in my eyes.

45. Piercings = Not even my ears.

46. Tattoos = none

47. Righty or lefty = right.

FIRSTS :

48. First surgery = luckily none. Will probably be to take away those ugly varicose veins on my leg =(

49. First piercing = none

50. First best friend = Emma.Ö? First one I remember to call best friend would have been Emma Larsson I think. Or Tina.

51. First sport you joined = I do not remember but the one I stuck with was soccer.

52. First vacation = Would have been Marbella in Spain or Austria for skiing with my family. We went to these almost every year when I was younger.

53. First pair of trainers = haha - probably got my sisters old ones...

RIGHT NOW:

54. Eating = nothing for a change. Fridge is pulling me with my homemade birthdaycake though =)

55. Drinking = nada.

56. I’m about to = lay here for another hour and explore the net. Then buy a pressie for a friend before class at 2pm.

57. Listening to = nothing still. Gonna put something on now. Chose Allie Moss - Passer by.

58. Waiting = To get up and empty my bladder.

YOUR FUTURE:

59. Want kids? = at least two!

60. Get Married? = Mainly for the party! And only if it will be a good one.

WHICH IS BETTER :

61. Lips or eyes? = big lips or sexy eyes.

62. Hugs or kisses = A great kiss at times but everyday warm, hugs with skin touching skin.

63. Shorter or taller = Taller but I always meet the same!

64. Older or Younger = Older. I like Men.

65. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous.

66. Nice stomach or nice arms = Mmm, arms. I have the perfect ones now.

67. Sensitive or loud = Loud.Sensitive annoys me.

68. Hook-up or relationship = Well opposing what I have I´d say hook-up but I love my man.

69. Trouble maker or hesitant = A marvelous mix.

HAVE YOU EVER :

70. Kissed a stranger = aha.

71. Drank hard liquor = aha (mostly these come together =)

72. Lost glasses/contacts = Yep and everything else you can lose. Right now I only have one contact in as Im known to.

73. Sex on first date = I sex was what I was after then I didnt hold it back.

74. Broken someone’s heart = yes, im sorry.

75. Had your own heart broken = no, which im scared about.

76. Been arrested = nope!

77. Turned someone down = yes.

78. Cried when someone died = for someone elses feelings yes.

79. Fallen for a friend = no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. Yourself = sometimes heaps sometimes not at all.

81. Miracles = hmm...yes...karma.

82. Love at first sight = from my side no. But my man sais to have fallen for me at first glance.

83. Heaven = id like to. But then id go there straight away!

84. Santa Claus = YES!

85. Kiss on the first date = not if you want him - then u better get him fight for it.

86. Angels = and demons? Not really. But a story my sister told me makes me wonder.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

87. Had more than one bf/gf? = yes. Two serious ones and a heap of teenage ones that changed as often as my undies.

88. Is there one person you want to be with right now? = always my friends and nieces&nephews.

89. Did you sing today? = I think every day. Thats from mum.

90. Ever cheated on somebody? = apparently.

91. Are you afraid of falling in love? = nope i want to be in love.

92. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = Would be a summerday from sweden with picking up Linnea in morning, going to beach with brothers and nephews and friends during day, go see dad, meet up with friends, take a drink, go out, party all night. Or my first Aussiechristmas - that was fun!

93. What do you hate most on yourself? = My hair and cellulite's! And eczema!

94. What do you like most about your look? = I get many compliments for my eyes but I just can´t see what´s special about them. Guess I seen them for too long. Probably my olive skin color and..yeah that would be it.

95. Who do you trust completely? = Erika. She never told me others people secrets however much I tried to get it out of her, and I do not feel ashamed of anything for her. In being there always, my sister and mum.

96. What is your dreamjob? = I would love to be a program producer or a 1st AD, on big filmshoots. Actually most positions on
big filmshoots would suit. Also I´s like to have my own production company or work with a nice crew doing adverts.

97. Who annoys you? = People who are incapable annoy me extremely. Slow working speed stresses me and if you don´t get things after trying it a few times you are in my stupid book. If you are humorous you might slip though =)

98. Do you regret anything you did? = I regret heaps of choices but try t think they were meant to be and it´s not worth regretting.

98. 5 people you´d invite for a dinner party? = Akmal (comedian), Robert Gustavsson (comedian), Bingo (photographer who seems like a great, down to earth entertainer), Clint Eastwood (To hear all his film-stories) and my grandma who passed away before I was old enough to understand, I would have loved to get to know her! And I would have loved to have my man, my brothers and some friends there to share it with.

99. Who makes you laugh? = Natta & Malin in a duo. Natta by herself. And my brothers in a duo. Jenny Bartle,

100. What do you want to have done when you turn 100? = Had a fulfilling career, have great kids and grandkids, and a lot of memories and stories. And when I´m retired I will go back to study everything I´m interested in. And travel in all sorts of ways, 1st class, backpacking, boat-hopping, bikeriding, horse-riding, cruising etc.

No, I dont wanna live in the future!

I am stuck in the present, living for the past.
Dont you dear take me somewhere that doesnt even exist!

Äkta kärlek?

Du är det finaste jag vet. Du är det fulaste i världen!
Du är som vindarna, som plågorna,
som fåglarna, som rånarna,
som blommorna som
tryckes ner i marken.

Du är min ledstjärna, ovän,
du är min tro, mitt stopp, min kärlek.
Du är mitt blod, och mina tyngder, mina ögon, mina skulder,
mina händer och min smärta.

Friheten är ditt vackra namn,
snålheten är din fula moder.
Rättvisan är din broder, striden är din syster, romansen är din fader, framtiden du svärtar.

Ja du är det finaste jag vet.
Du är det suraste i världen.
Du är som stjärnorna, som hindrar en som vågorna, som frågar allt, som blommorna
som ogräset i marken.

Jag ville inte. Orkade inte. Försökte inte. Föraktade inte.
Jag gick. O gick. O sökte o gick.
Sen tog jag bussen och skvallrade istället.

He was shaking

Euphoria of ambition. speed and striking lighting thunder and storms.
Corners cramped up in ambig space.
Laugh from devastation. anger of gratifications. broken conversation. organs turned inside out to reveal the false truth.
Creative choice of cultivation and voice.
You must delegate. You must trust.
You may not expose or you will die.

I combed his hair back in a mohawk while he searched for my affirmation. Santa claus was here and my heart and scone awaits in the fridge. It might be alright tomorrow.

smile. laugh. enjoy. believe. smile. hope. be.

if whatever it is you do, isn't what makes your veins ripple in trembling happiness, then cast it far away, into the deep of the galaxies. Don't let change intimate you, summon it up from within you, evolve, become it, for if you can change yourself, you can change the world.